Sufferings are always part of life
and supposed to be, the hope must accompany it but hope can’t stop the anguish
and hardship carried with those sufferings since the capability of a human to
hold on would never be forever, it always lasts and giving-up is waiting at the
corner. Seeking solutions are the main point to get away from sufferings but
sometimes those solutions are neither unacceptable nor impossible to be done.
We can accept suffering but we can’t embrace it continually, time will come
when we will throw it away. Not because light or solution has come but the time
to give- up is already there. To keep it will only bring us into the deepest
hole. To give-up might peace will come. Complains are the major symptoms that the time
to give-up is near but instead that it must be heard many would criticize. Why need to be stubborn if no one understands
you? It’s really hard to live life
feeling alone, realizing that you are only the second choice of everyone. No
one loves you for who you are, you want to show them that you care and this is
the way to love but every time you seek you only proved that there’s no one who
has such kind of competency. We know
that life is not like fairy tale that it ends happily since real life must go
on and the road that we need to walk forward are still very long. We must look forward and that sufferings will
be left behind, cannot stop us to keep walking and accomplish up to the finish
line. Neither loosing once nor many times would ever destroy us as long as we
live, life will keep on moving. At least enjoy and be cheerful enough.
I am Ashbel Winter
"Don't let the ghost of failure drug you down further--- learn to fight and get over"
Martes, Marso 10, 2015
Sabado, Pebrero 14, 2015
Personalities that I must obtain
I am someone who has a positive
outlook in life such that I can do everything with perseverance, patience, and
love. My strength is strong to face problems, trials, hardships, and failures. Living
easy without lies or pretenses as not being ashamed of whom I really am. Silent
and smile as symbol of my attention not only to listen but also to understand
and to give opinion then suggestion. I know where I stand and very aware to
keep firm of righteousness. I am faithful to be trusted as not being afraid of responsibility.
I know that every great success is the fruit of clean hard work. I always plan
and act for my goal’s fulfilment. I am always worried but I take them all
simply by taking a break and think over the rightful solution. Gay and flexible
to jam with others showing openness without judgments. I am frank and mean but
I know my limit. I am witty refined woman and always in love as inspired. I am
sensitive of others needs and feelings but in my decision making I am not be
influenced by them. I am polite and a bit of shy but my dignity waving high out
of humility. I adore GOD alone for His Holy Name as the Word incarnate with the
Holy Spirit, Amen.
Sabado, Pebrero 7, 2015
Unforgettable adventure
Faith
is for God alone but it is always entangled with temptations. The faith I have,
I know is not pure, it is stained by sins affected by fragile physique. Once, I
woke up full of distress, like an empty but has no space to be filled, has
direction but still can’t find the way and always worried but unable to obtain
solution. There I realized I am tied on my failures, can’t see the light since
my eyes are closed but my ears can hear the whispers of the salvation to
stretch out my hand to give trust. But my heart is afraid and the doubt is
there from that invitation courage is a dare. I tried to reflect the answer in
order to let go from that pain but their ghosts are hunting me even on my
dreams. I left my distress, emptiness, aims, and worries. I moved into a
special place to have peace for a while. Through this travel, I know it is
temporary, but still I pursue to find what I’m looking--- and that is strength.
I need strength to face what I left and I know I will obtain it from that
destined place. My plan is to take Jesus with me from there to help me overcome
and bring back myself.
The
tiresome experience I have during that Papal visit is unforgettable not because
I got separated and lost in the middle of the crowd not only once but twice, or
the complaints I heard from people surrounding me with their unpleasant
behavior such as pushing, pressing and others are shouting unreasonably words
nor the coldness I felt for almost 7 hours under the rain, everything of that
has no importance compared to what I naturally gain and see with my own eyes. I
see people ready to hear the word of God with full attention, well behave as
the mass started with great voice shouting for praises matching with dances,
strength to overcome limitations and faith to feel the sunshine from that
storm. Even I will close my eyes I know
I will not get lost because everything is clear and the emotions are pure. The
rain are like tears of sufferings I shed when I am on my limits of anguish and
despair and I know I’m not alone, many could relate to what I feel during that
time. Maybe a lot of us are hiding our tears from that rain because of hope in
our prayers which will be answered, we don’t know. But just like tears that
rain, the next day is a great sunshine implying me a new day to start a new
life.
Now
I’m back here facing once again my struggles in life, even I didn’t see the
Pope I don’t feel disappointed because in exchange I received a lot of
blessings. My emptiness are filled by my
co-delegates, my aims have now colors because of newly inspiration, my worries
will be my strength and the distress just fades away as if it never existed. A
newly born cheery day will start again with a great enthusiasm to pursue on
living.
Miyerkules, Enero 21, 2015
Change out from sharing
What made our life become much more colorful is our emotions... affected from experience and developed by friends. We share one world but the difference are very visible. The foundation of everything is within ourselves. I realize a lot of things and learning are the best if you would let yourself to accept but acceptance would always take when we know that we are all the same... we share a lot of things but why difference existed and acceptance difficult?
When I put myself in the middle of unfamiliar people and made myself open to share... I didn't notice that I already introduce myself to someone who is exactly the same as me but at the same time is different but then someone who made me think twice and make me accept the possibilities. I am stubborn but changes happened anytime.
When I put myself in the middle of unfamiliar people and made myself open to share... I didn't notice that I already introduce myself to someone who is exactly the same as me but at the same time is different but then someone who made me think twice and make me accept the possibilities. I am stubborn but changes happened anytime.
Linggo, Disyembre 28, 2014
"what is it?"
While finding myself, at what
particular place I am standing in this world--- What is my real aim in life?---
this question was formed. I once started by planning what to do then dream what
will I become in the future. But then life would not happen accordingly to what
we plan, there are problems that may hinder us and test if we are worthy with
that dream. Dream is just a mere dream anyway if we don’t act for its own
fulfillment to make it out to reality. Dream then turn out to become our goal
that would give us courage to make out something in our life. The success is on
our reach when the fulfillment would come as a reward given by the judge. The
judge will always do its job to award you or to cut you out of your dreams. So
must act wisely and reasonably in order to take it but most people would give
up and take out some part of their dreams or get rid them all for after all it’s
just a dream, made by our own imagination and unbelievably to be fulfilled by
anyone.
Sabado, Disyembre 20, 2014
Ghosts scared Ashbel Winter
Got it
now that once you fall, it’s hard to move up once again. I wonder what will
happen next if there will be another downfall and that’s what I’m afraid of. I
know that once I fail again, I’ll become a failure forever. It is the ghost
that hunts me, that gave me pressure and weakens my spirit. I wonder how to overcome
this, maybe I need a huge break, but everything seems impossible to me now. My
courage is fading and confidence is gone. Lucky for those who consider failure
as a test of their ability but for me it is the result of my ability. How to improve
it is the problem I’m facing now but first I must overcome and fight those
ghosts who want to drug me down further. I must fight and keep myself upright
shouting that “I would never be a failure forever!!!!”
I must
gain inspirations for me to keep moving on and develop once again my confidence
and strengthen my courage. I will have a great adventure and trials will come
till I die but while I am living I will fight and take the honor of without
giving up. Right, I must attain what is my goal in the near future and to the
further and furthest future. And may GOD be with me always.
Miyerkules, Disyembre 17, 2014
Facing Money Problems
How
much money can a person gain and waste throughout his life? Unbelievably it
can’t be calculated or you should never start to count. The powers it gained
which we let are unbearable. It causes stress, envy, hatred, hunger, sickness,
and lastly death. Can’t you think that it already controls us gore to the bones
and to the dusts of our bodies, grinding our souls keeping it unfixed and
broken, powdered with sins which cannot be saved, and love would come but
cannot be appreciated. Life is meaningless and full of struggles added by
pressures and responsibilities. Earth is placed for us to live not to survive
but why we people made our life harder? Reasons….
I don’t know, just wanted to say something to deliver my complain.
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