Ashbel Winter’s Relationship

The closure of openness in my heart had been fulfilled that I must make a move in order to gain what is needed, to feed out from hunger, and to please for pleasure among ourselves. I gain what I want from hardship which is opposite from what they know, but my need is given to me by God who never neglect me and I appreciate and so. I always chose the hard way not due to circumstances but of what is needed by me to become someone.

The someone who can touch your heart and lead on a way that everyone would not expect. Yes, I am ambitious up to the extent of impossibilities. I am stubborn and hypocrite on my decisions and I don’t believe that I have such limited abilities. After failures that I have tasted and still can’t accept, I realize that everything that happened lately is due to my attitude. My decisions are made based on my attitude not on what I can do. Limitations are there or might be. I’m overconfident out of nothing, nothing yet to tell. I just thought that I already know myself but for real I can’t even determine which one is the one. I am a mere 19 year old kid who asks many questions regarding on the way of living. My life is just starting.

Always Rationale

Being with my friends I realize that there are a lot of things that I must not do always in order to appreciate more of their importance. Seeing my friends once again made my decision firm that I must not waste my sacrifice being afar from them that I must do my best on my studies. It doesn’t matter if I will over exert myself the important is that I want them to become proud of me.

They had become part of my adventures and now they became part of my decision. They changed me and help me developed my personality. To tell you, I’m once a snob but somehow, since I know them I learn to greet people around me. I learned to feel how to become happy, sad, excited and even to get angry. It’s so weird to tell that they put colors in my life and to tell you because of these changes I learn to care others and I’ve become closer to my family. They are my important and knowing that I’m not together with them makes me sad.

I am Ashbel Winter

I just want to tell you that in my current situation I feel miserable. That’s why maybe I made this blog account to share what I feel and to speak out myself. I don’t know if there is anyone who can relate me and have time to read what I wrote here but I thank you if there is someone and I’m sorry if my grammar is wrong, maybe if you have time please correct them but I will try my best to convey what I mean.

 Last semester, I got two failure subjects, which is very extraordinary on my case and I really don’t expect. I never experience failure on my academe and it’s my first time. Yeah, I know I’m not that great too but I also gain awards and honors in the past which I’m proud of. I feel down and it’s tormenting me every time I remember. It shuttered my dreams into pieces that even my tears can’t bring them back together. Till now I’m still on my process to move on and the second semester had started. I don’t have my friends with me now and I’m all alone. No one to speak to since all of them transferred to another school saying that they can’t afford to stay anymore... so I have decided that I’ll make this blog account as a sort kind of diary. Maybe, you will hear a lot of complains but maybe I also need some of your advice.

Thank you to whoever reads. I really appreciate.